
Like many books on my shelves, I’ve had this one for a long time but hadn’t gotten a chance to read it yet. What brought me to it? I guess you could say a spiritual restlessness of sorts. I’ve had some ups and downs — spiritually speaking — during this crazy time of unemployment and I needed a good biography of someone who put her life and her dreams in the hands of her God. (Yes, it also helped that the biography was about a woman and a single woman at that.)
A Chance to Die — The Life and Legacy of Amy Carmichael by Elisabeth Elliot met my needs and more. The book tells the story of Amy Carmichael’s journey from a young child, then woman, in Ireland to the matriarch of an adopted “family” in India. From a young age, Amy felt called to tell others about Christ and the saving grace He offers through faith in Him. She moved among the poor of her town and surrounding areas — all while seeking a “higher” calling to a far away land. How she ends up in India is worth the read in and of itself; but the spiritual journey that God takes her on is what really resonated with me.
Amy struggled to discern where God wanted her to go. She felt strongly that He wanted her to be a missionary in another country, but disappointment and misread signals seemed to derail her from finding that right location. Through it all, though, she doesn’t give up. It’s that determination to follow her God anywhere that moved me where I needed movement the most. Although she felt every dashed hope deeply, each time Amy had to turn back from what she thought was “the” place God was pulling her into an evermore dependant existence. He needed her to be totally “on-board” with Him and reliant on Him to be ready for what He had planned for her.
And His plan was an amazing adventure that, once Amy was there, she never left until her death. The majority of Amy’s life was spent building and securing a safe haven for the lost children of Dohnavur, India. Children who were once abandoned or sold into prostitution were brought to her, many by the grace and hands of God’s servants in India, and became part of her family.
Though Amy reaches Dohnavur in the early stages of the 380pg biography, her spiritual growth doesn’t end there … and obviously neither does her story. The rest of the biography follows the growth of the Dohnavur Fellowship that still exists in India today — long after its founder has gone to her Lord. What overwhelmed me during the growth of this ministry, which was attacked in many physical and spiritual ways, was Amy’s constant and staunch reliance on prayer for the things needed to make the ministry productive. Whatever was needed, be it money, people, or protection, Amy first went to prayer … and then had the faith to know that God would answer.
My favorite quote from the entire book is when Elliot, the author, quotes Amy herself, saying “Faith never wonders why.” Amy had that dependence on God and confidence in His power and provisions that she did not question that He would answer her prayers. And even when faced with a long, drawn-out, pain-filled descent to death, Amy relied on God to provide for her family and for herself. She did not ask why but followed God on whatever road He called her to go on. That’s amazing faith.